Two Days Left

Down to little less than two days at home now. Saturday marks my grand return to my oh-so-messy apartment (well, not that messy, but I didn't really clean up at all before leaving and there are still goose down feathers all over the place from Draper ripping a hole in my comforter.) I'm very excited, but now a little nervous. My last week home as flown by, and my last two days have been spent sleeping on the couch because I feel not-so-great. Can't be getting sick -- I start school in a week!

Other than just being kinda overwhelmed with the usual sense of having so much to do before I head out on yet another adventure, the week has been really sentimental for me. I'm in a weird, emotional mind set, and that doesn't happen. I mean, yeah, I'm one of the most nostalgic people I know, but I'm not emotional by any means. Maybe this week has just been too much for my usually rational brain to handle. Kim left today, Helen leaves today, I leave Saturday, I won't see Ben for another month. On Tuesday, we all went to Oriental Gardens for one last Chinese fix before we all parted ways, and I was poised to be a total basketcase. It didn't happen, though, because a certain friend of ours decided to spend the whole time acting like a fucking ten year old who had been given too many pixie sticks. Yeah, not what I was in the mood for, personally.

But, we have all talked about plans to see each other, and are going to make a real effort to not loose touch the way we tend to when we go different directions. It's hard when you're living in totally different worlds, but we're all at an age now where it isn't impossible, and the importance of staying close is obvious. And even though Ben said he got an interview with a company in Wichita, and even though no matter where he ends up I'm totally willing to do anything I can to make things work, I'm still hopeful that in two short months, he'll at least be closer than six hours away. What can I say, I'm a cockeyed optimist like that.

Urgh, now how can I get rid of this headache? I've felt kinda sick for the past few days and I'm totally over it. . .